Looking forward to my 1st Mother’s Day
What a joy! I am so excited to be getting ready to celebrate my first Mother’s Day. I have been thinking for a while about how I wanted to celebrate this year. Last year, I was elated to be pregnant with my first child. I am looking forward to my 1st Mother’s Day with my sweet infant son. In years past, this holiday has not always been one I looked forward to honestly.
The Pain
When you are trying to conceive Mother’s Day can be a difficult day for many reasons. You go to church, out to a restaurant, or look on social media and see so many mothers being celebrated. You have feelings of sadness, envy, and many other emotions. I was also struggling with the mixed signals I got from my stepdaughters. They acknowledge me but it seemed they did not want to really enthusiastically celebrate me (if that makes sense). I was gifted the standard gift of whatever they had made in their elementary school class.
The Beauty
I have decided this year, although my son is too young to give me a gift of anything other than his love, I will give a gift to myself. I will celebrate myself as a mother. I will celebrate continuing to pray for a child and keeping the faith even when I wanted to give up and stop trying for a baby. I will commemorate the occasion with a photo shoot featuring me and my son. I may treat myself to a few small trinkets or a nice piece of jewelry too.
The Journey
See I got so caught up in the destination of having a baby, I forgot to enjoy the journey. I did not celebrate myself along the way. I had not given birth to the children in my life and I felt unworthy of celebrating myself for that reason. I hope this Mother’s Day all women will celebrate themselves and the women in their lives who are a motherly figure whether her title is stepmom, aunt, sister or friend. And reserve a little space in your heart for those women who are trying to conceive, know they cannot conceive or are struggling to fit in on Mother’s Day.
How did you celebrate your first Mother’s Day and how will you be celebrating this year?
